Friday, February 24, 2012

Reflection for February 23

The Stamford train station is a ghost of itself at 5:30 AM.  I pulled into the parking garage at this time yesterday and made my way to the station proper as a part of an Ash Wednesday ministry.  The Rev. Kate Heichler, the Rev. Joan Breckenridge, and a group of about eight seminarians from Yale Divinity School gathered at Stamford's commuter hub to distribute Ashes on the Go

Ashes to Go
The clergy wore collars and a stole and the seminarians were robed in black cassocks.  Sandwich board signs informed passersby about the Ashes on the Go.  And we grouped in pairs along the walkways and the platforms of the station to distribute ashes to those who desired them.

The seminarians were a very eager group and there was a noticeable excitement at the prospects for the morning.  (Full disclosure:  I was encouraged by the energy of the seminarians, but soon learned that they may have been a little overeager.  We didn't need to be at the station at 5:30!!)

The activity that morning was, in a way, alot like waking up:  slow and slumbering at first, building into more and more activity, and then quickening into the normal pace for the day.  There was little activity in the station when we arrived.  Those waiting for a train napped or sipped on a cup of coffee.  Cars trickled slowly into the station.  And the Ash Wednesday pairs were able to talk about the morning, classes at Yale, family histories, and whatever else passed the time.

More on the Ashes to Go

Then, as the sun rose above the horizon and showered the city and station with light and unseasonable warmth, the pace began to pick up.  People would pass us by.  Some would look stolidly ahead and not make eye contact.  Others would glance at our sign--Ashes on the Go--and either smile, shake their head as if such a thing was unconscionable, or do a double take to make sure they actually were seeing what they thought they saw.

And then one person came over to us. 

"Is this for real?" she asked.  And we assured her that, indeed, it was.  To which she responded, "Well, then, give me some."  And we obliged, asking her name, and then etching on her forehead the sign of a cross with the declaration, "Remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return."

Sort of a strange thing to say and certainly more strange, I suppose, to ask for it in a train station.  Yet, there we were, and there they were, and what was offered was graciously received.  People--not all and certainly a minority, but people nonetheless--wanted this.  They wanted to have ashes placed on their forehead and those words spoken over them.

That, to me, is amazing.   

Even more on the Ashes to Go

Of course, many of the exchanges were uneventful.  People simply came to where we were standing, put out their foreheads, and then moved on to catch their train.  And, I suspect, that I will never meet Len, or Marty, or Adele again.  Yet, for a very small moment in time, we shared a connection.  We participated in the truth-telling of this day and of our lives--that we are dust and to dust we shall return--and we were able to take that awareness into the day and the world that is so very big and crazy and filled with so many competing messages and claims.

What I found satisfying about the morning was the simple human contact and acknowledgment of another.  We were not demanding people stop.  The posts were set up inconspicuously, and short of greeting passersby with, "Good Morning," we said very little.  Yet, even the "Good Morning," was a change in the routine of many I would guess.  And for those who stopped, there was an acknowledgment of reality, a reconnection to some past practice or event, something that stirred within them for just a moment and moved them to receive ashes.

Many would reject what we did as a stunt or, God forbid, not a complete service (replete with confession, etc.).  Yet, the moments that we do have are limited, and the opportunities that we get to remind people of God, of their value in the eyes of God, and the preciousness of life is so very fleeting.  So, for this Ash Wednesday, Ashes on the Go seemed like the right thing.  Or, in the words of one person, "This is awesome!"  Amen.

Blessings.

Mark    

Thursday, February 9, 2012

February 9 Post

Man (sic) is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue.        -Anne Lamott, Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts
on Faith


This past Sunday we had one of the best book discussions that I have been a part of for some time.  The discussion focused on Annie Lamott's Traveling Mercies, and it was broad ranging,  involved everyone who attended, and possessed wonderful moments of insight and serendipity. 

If you know Lamott's writing, you know that it is deeply personal and can be a bit unnerving with frank descriptions of her "interesting" life.  You cannot say that Lamott hasn't lived.  You also cannot say  that she lacks honesty and forthrightness. And finally, you cannot say that she hasn't glimpsed grace.

Indeed, what strikes me about Lamott's writing is its brutal honesty and its awareness of where and how God may be present in the midst of the whole crazy and wonderful mess we call life.  For some, these vignettes of life are upsetting.  She can be hard to read.  For others, the stories of Annie Lamott have an almost parable like quality to them.

And in the fine tradition of the parables of Jesus, her stories function to subvert, to shake us awake, to force us to see the harshness of life.  Yet, in doing so, we stumble into the presence of the holy.
One writing example from Traveling Mercies expresses well the reality of what many of us expect from life, what the truth actually is, and how that may be enough.  Lamott writes:

It's funny: I always imagined when I was a kid that adults had some kind of inner toolbox full of shiny tools: the saw of discernment, the hammer of wisdom, the sandpaper of patience. But then when I grew up I found that life handed you these rusty bent old tools - friendships, prayer, conscience, honesty - and said 'do the best you can with these, they will have to do'. And mostly, against all odds, they do. 
 
As humans, we desire order and structure and meaning that follows a certain logic and trajectory.  Chaos and meaninglessness is naturally abhorred.  However, life throws us a number of curve balls and upsets that nice, neat idea of an unobstructed linear development of meaning within our life.  Indeed, what we expect often is not what we get. 

Yet, as Lamott notes, the rusty bent tools of friendship, prayer, conscience, and honesty often will suffice. 

As we talked on Sunday, the stories of Annie Lamott elicited our own stories, and I was reminded again of the power of narrative and the holiness of each of our stories.  Part of the beauty and blessing of the Christian tradition is that it is a wonderfully long and winding story about God and God's relationship with humanity and the larger creation.  God's story mingles with our story.  Our story impacts God's story! 

Thus, we are developing a Lenten reflection booklet based on the stories of those at St. Francis and at the Episcopal Church of Christ the Healer.  We all have something to offer, for we all have our stories, and the telling of those stories is a sacred act.  The telling of our stories allows us to discover or deepen friendship.  The telling of our stories is an act of prayer.  The telling of our stories piques and engages our conscience.  And telling our stories hopefully allows us to acknowledge the truth of our lives and the world around us. 

I invite you to offer your story in our Lenten reflection booklet.  If you haven't already contacted me, please do so.  Regardless, please enjoy the fruits of the writing labors of many within both congregations.  And I hope you may recognize amidst the fragments that are offered a bit of the glue holding us all together.

Blessings.

Mark